ente pranayinikku

priya sakhi....

Doore suryan asthamikyunnu. Neelakashathil vismayam theerkunna suryaasthamayathinte varnam ennile santhoshathinu maattu kuttunu, karanam innekyu nammal orumichattu 53 varsham aayi. Vaardhakyathil enthu wedding day. Ennatheyum pole oru divasam. Pakshe nammukathu athu marakkan pattatha oru anubhavam alle. 53 varsham munbu oru prenayasaabhalyathinte santhoshathil orumicha nammalkku, athu epozhum oru sughamulla oru orma alle!! Jeevithathil enthokke vannu poyi. Santhoshangalkum sangatangalkkum idayilum ne ente kude ninnu..enne jeevithathe neriduvan ulla oru poralli aakiyathu ninte mathram kazhuvukondaanu!. 

Collegil vechu kandu parichayapetta naalukalil , aarum ariyathe ninnem  kondu njan ivide vannathu innale kazhinja pole. Anu ee suryaprabhayil njan ninte sundaramaya mugham nokki nirvrithi adayarundayirunnu. Aa kannukalile thilakavum , snehathodulla nottavum, oru cheru punjiriyum  aayirunnu ente lahari. Sangatam ullapozhum santhoshamullapozhum ninte mugham ennum nishkalangamayirunnu. athu kaanumbol ente nengile bhaaram kurayum. 

Ee stalavum , ividathe kaatum ,suryabhrabhayil sundari aaya prakirthiyum ippol nammalkku anyaralla. Kaalamethra kadannu poyi ennu ariunnathu nammude mughathe cheriya chulivukalum, narachu cheriya chaara niramaya thalamudiyum, kanin chuttumulla karappum kaanumbozhaanu. Pakshe ippozhum ente kaikullile chudu pidikyunna ninte cheriya kaiyukkal ente kaikullil ennum bhadramaayirikyum.

 Nale enthaanennu ariyathe, athine kurichu vyakulapedaathe jeevikyunna nammalkku epozhum samadanamundakatte ennu aagrahikyunnu njan.Aa valiya sathyam ente jeevithathil kondu varan sahayicha ninne ente oro swasam pole njan snehikyunnu. Adyamayi ivide vechu aparichathare pole kandu maranna aa divasathe kkaryangal orthu kondu ivide nilkumbol ne ente kaiyil onnude murukki pidichu nilkumbozhum ore oru karyame njan aagrahikyunullu... jeevitham ninte kude orumichu pokanam, orumichu avasanikyanam.. 

Snehathode..

bala vinodhangal.....

ente kadhayude peraanu...(kadhaprasangathinte dialogues parayumbol ulla aa muzhakkamille... aa athu thanne.....ini ee muzhakathine njan "bell" ennu churukunnu)..... Bala Vinodhangal..... (bell)...

ee kadhanadakunnathu angu thirondroratho koyikodo alla... pinne evidaya....

angu doore alengilum aduthallatha nammude swantham, eranakulam jillayilaaanu.... ernakulathuninnum thrisur pokunna vazhi, vadakkan paravur ennu visheshipikyunna oru kochu city... avidannu ezhikkara pokunna vazhiyil oru paavam kadhaprasanga kaaran thaamasichirunnu... "KEDAMANGALAM SADANANDAN"..... athe.. nammude yellam priyapetta aa mahante naatil thanne aanu ee kadha nadakunnathu.....

sahrudayare.. aa kochu gramathinte swantham devi kudi kolunna aa devi kshethrathilekyu onnu nokku... athe ... atha avidaninnum aarokeyo varunundu.. samshayikyanda athil nammude kadha naayika ..  kshamikyanam.. kadha baalika... varunilla.. aval evide poyi.. ...

atha aval avalude swantham ambalathil vilakku koluthi nilkunnu.... 7 vayassu maathram praayamulla aval atha avalude ammumayude kude aanu.... avide vere oru kuttiye kuudi kaanam... aara???? athe athaanu nammude kadha baalikayude swantham kudapirappu.... 6 maasam mathram vethyasathil janicha evar chechi aniyan maarude makkalaanu.... erattakalaanenne otta nottathil parayullu..... randu perum ore polathe kuppayam dharichirikyunnu... avar yepozhum orumichaanu... 





angane oru shaniyazhicha divasam vannu..... athoru sambhava bahulamaya divasam aayirunnu.... randu rekshidakalum avarorude kuttikale muthashiyudeyum muthashanteyum aduthi aaki avaravarude jolikyu poyi.... nammude kadha balikayum kootukariyum inangiyum pinangiyum kalichum chirichumokke angane nadakunnu... muthashi akathengo avarkkulla palaharangal undakunna thirakkil aanu.... ucha bhakshanathinu shesham oru cheriya mayakkam randu perum urangi.. 

3 mani aakunu... veyinte chudu kuranju thundanganulla sramathil aanu.... randu kunji kuttikalum kalikyaan pokukayanu.. a.... (kadaprasangam parayumbol idakyu oru paatu kelkille.. angane oru paattaanu ini ningal vaayikyan pokunnathu... lesham tune kudi cherthu paatuka... )

"kalichum chirichu valaratte avar..
nammude ponnomakalay valaratte...
bhaaviyil valiyavar aakatte ...
avar nallavaray valaratte..."


athe.. avar kalikyan pokunnu... pakshe oru cheriya "kashapisha" undaayi.... aa vazhi vanna avarude muthashan otthu theerpinu vannu....

nammude kadha baalika pipe thurannu vellam kalanjondu nilkukayayirunnu... pettanu muthashane oru cheriya kuli kulipichu.. athe muthashante mundu nananju..(Bell)....


kadha balikakyu pediyayi.. muthashi arinjal ippo kittum.. palaharamalla.. athinu munbu oru chutta ADI...

avalude kaikalukal virakyan thudangi.. vayattil oru yerichil pole..... hridayamidippu koodi.. enthu cheyum.... aval enthu cheythirikyu ???  kadhashnehikale.. aval atha avalude koottukariyude veetilekyu odi poyi....


samayam 4 mani kazhinju... ithuvare kadha balika chaya kudikyan varathathukondu avalude muthashi avale vilichu..."bale bale..... vaa chaya kudikyam.." 

aval vanilla... pinneyum vilichu.. pineeyum vanilla.... 

ESHWARA.... aval evide poyi... vili kelkunillallo..... paavam aa vridhamathapithakal pedichu poyi... kootukarikyum pedi aakunu... enthu cheyum...?????

kinattilum kodathilum kattilinte adiyilum alamarikyullilum vaathilinu pinvashathum parambilum .... yelladathum avale anveshichu avar nadannu.. ore oru prarthana.. " balekyu onnum sambhavikyalle... " "avale kaatholane"....

veedum parambu thiranju.... yevideyum nammude kadha balika illa..... veedinu munnil road undu.. cheeripayunna busum lorryum pokunna road.... yellardem pedi vardhichu varunnu.... kannuneer adakkan paadupedunnu....

angane road sidile pettikadayil chodichu " oru kochu kutti ithu vazhi enganum poyathu kando ningal"....
kadayile yellarum ithu kettu thirinju nokki.... "illa sire" avar aa muthashanodu paranju... " enthu patti sire... kuttiye yethra neramayi kaananjattu?"... muthashanu sangatam sahikyan aakathe paranju " kurachu neramayi.. kalichondu nilkukayayirunnu.. vilichattu vili kelkathondu anveshichichu irangiyatha"...


paranju theerum munbu kadayile yellarum kudi aa kochu kuttiye nokki irangi...

"avideyum nokki ivideyum nokki
yengum kaananillallo..
evidepoyi kunji kutti
onnu vilikelku nee"

ippozhum thante koottukari avidevidayo yendanulla uracha vishvasathodukudi aa koottukari avalude veedinu chuttum vilichu nokki nadannu....


pettanaanu aval oodi poyi....

priyapeta naattukare aa koottukari evidekyaanu poyathu.. athe atha angottu nokku.. aval atha avalude muthashikyarikil undu... aval entho paranju... yellarum kudi avalude veedinu munnile gateinum mathilinum idayile oru cheriya idukkilekyu nokki...


ATHA.. NAMMUDE KADAHABALIKA...athe aval thanne.. yellarum noki nilke avalude chandikyikittu oru ADI.... Athe avalude muthashiyude kayyil ninnum ulla adyathe adi.... 

Sangatam kannukalilude purathekyu vannu... 

Pakshe yellavarkum santhoshamayi.... nammude kadha balika kyu onnum pattiyillallo....

yellarum santhoshathodu kudi pirinju poyi...

Apozhanu atha nammude kuttukariyude achan varunnathu... vanna paade yellarum paranjathu kettu... pakshe adheham athonum karyamaakiyilla... pocketil ninnum oru "GEMS" packet yeduthu randu perkumayi koduthu...

Athreyum neram undayirunna sangatam mari.... 

Nokinilkumbol thanne aa randu balikamar nadannu neengi.. pinneyum pazhayathu pole kalichu chirichu nadakkan... oru gems packetum kondu..:-)

(Adyam paadiya paattu athe tune allengilum yethandu oru tunil pinneyum paadunnu.....!!!)




[ethu oru nadanna sambhavamaanu... ippo pakshe aa randu balikamar valarnu valuthayi.. vidhya sambannarayi.. namude kadha balika valarnnu oru cheriya sundariyayi.. aalude kalyanavum kazhinju sughamayi jeevikyunnu.... koottukariye ketttikyan ulla karyangal nokkunundu... varshangal kadannu poyittum aa annu kittiya adiyude vedana ippozhum undu... oru sughamulla kalathinte ormayayi...!!!]

shock!!!!

first hour after the long lunch break ,,, HOD in class teaching High performance computing.. she was saying something.. i wasn't listening .. as NOT usual... Shaziya with me.. and to our back beach was saidu  and aakash..they were disturbing us.. saying "this " and "that".. since i wasn't there for 3 days from Monday.. i had notes to be completed..(till now "INCOMPLETE").. i don't know when our teacher stopped the class even... i was dreaming,(along with writing), about my future.  a total confusion.. like i am in some place of fog filled.. ma path is not clear.. where will i end up.. don't know.... 

whats ma ultimate DREAM... to work in a BANK or  to go for M tech and become a TEACHER.. 

or should i only think of ma NEXT SECOND??? 

real confusion.. right,,,!!!!

so sorry friends..... the above things are just a LIE... he he... 

wanted to write something.. don't have anything special to be written in...

so thought i would just make up a story... :-)

by the way... hows is the story..??? :-P

oru anaadha jeeevan//

ഈ തലക്യെട്ടു കാണുമ്പോള്‍ നിങ്ങള്‍ വിചാരിക്യും എന്റെ കാര്യമാ പറയണതെന്ന്

... എന്നാല്‍ നിങ്ങള്ക്ക് തെറ്റി.. ഇന്നത്തെ യാത്രയില്‍ കണ്ട ഒരു ദൃശ്യം ആണ് ഈ തലക്യെട്ടിന്റെ അര്‍ഥം.. 

എന്തോ ആകെ സങ്ങടം തൊനി.. ഒരു പാവം നായകുട്ടി വണ്ടി തട്ടി മരിച്ചു കിടക്കാന് ...

കണ്ടപ്പോ വിചാരിച്ചു മനുഷന്‍ ആയതു എന്തൊരു ഭാഗ്യമെന്നു..

പിന്നീടു ആലോചിച്ചപ്പോ വിചാരിച്ചു എത്രയോ മനുഷ്യര്‍ ഇതിലും കഷ്ടമായി മരിക്യനു..

വീട്ടുകാര് നോല്‍ക്കാതെ ഉപേഷിച്ച നിലയില്‍ ... ഞാന്‍ വിചാരിച്ചു ഞാന്‍ എത്ര ഭാഗ്യവതി ആണെന്ന്...

നോല്‍ക്കാന്‍ അച്ഛനും അമ്മയും.. സ്നേഹിക്യാന്‍ കുടുംബക്കാര്‍.. കൂട്ടുകാര്‍... എല്ലാരും...

എന്നിട്ടോ..

നമ്മള്‍ പിന്നെയും പിന്നെയും അതൊന്നും മതിയാകാതെ ...

ക്ഷമിക്യണം... 

വിഷയം മാറിയെന്നു തോന്നണു .. 

ആ കാഴിച്ഹ കണ്ടപ്പോ എന്‍റെ മനസ്സു അറിയാതെ ഈ വിചാരങ്ങളിലൂടെ പോയി..

എങ്ങനെ ഈ വിഷയം തീര്കണം എന്ന് അറിയില്ല...

എന്തായാലും വിഷമം വന്നു ...

ഈശ്വര ഈ കഴിച്ച  എനിക്യു നീ കാണിച്ചു തന്നതിന്റെ അര്‍ഥം എന്താണ്...

ഇനി അത് ആലോചിച്ചു കിടക്കാം.. അല്ലെ...

ശുഭരാത്രി... 

ennatheyum pole innum..

entha ezhtha,,, ariyilla

enthokeyo ezhuthaan vendi vannatha, uchakyu...

pakshe alochichirunnu angane urangi poyi..

koottukaarikal kurachu peru innu infosys placementinu poyi..

avarkku kitti yennu msg vannappo ore samayam santhoshavum sangatavum, kurachu naanakedum thoni.

enthina? ennoduthanne chodichu..

aa.. entho oru cheriya sangatam..

chilappo njan collegil chernna samayathu angane oru swapnam kandu nadannathinte ayirikyum..

 manasinte evidayo aa cheriya vendannu vecha swapnathinte enthokkeyo avashishtam kidakunnundaakum..

oru teachero, allengl oru bankilo.. angane enthengilum oru cheriya joli venamenne ullu..

ennalo manasinte yetho conil evidayo enthokeyo aa swapnam undayirunnekam... athayirikyum aa sangatathinte ardham...

engane ano yella swapnangalum..???? mansil ninnum poyalum, nammalaayi kalanjalum, yeppozhengilum enthengilum ariyumbo, allaengil sambathinkyunnathu enthengilum kettalo mansu ariyathe athilekyu veezhunnathu..

manushyar angane aano? atho athu ente chindagathi ano?

ആ അറിയില്ല.. ചിലപ്പോ ആയിരിക്യം .. അല്ലെ...

a gem of my life....

yes.. indeed a GEM.... ma grandpa, Mr. V.Kunjan Menon..

he is no more now..

but still with me...

to start with, he was awesome, an encyclopedia ,....

a kind of man who was very kind to all...

he was a teacher, a half doctor( visha vydyam)  , even took part in II world war, worked in mathrubhumi, a hostel warden, and a very good husband,father and grandfather...

he had a great knowledge in english , malayalam, and hindi..

he was an embodiment of love and care..

i lost him on 15th october, 2010.

u will always be there in ma heart...

love you ma dear grandpa..

dedicated to ma grandpa....

this day.

hi everyone,
i am new to this world. so pardon for ma mistakes...
it came accidently that i stated blogging for the first time today, which fortunately is ma date of birth.
it was so happy to see at the morning a beautiful card from ma sister. 
and also many miscall and birthday messages from ma friends.


though i am not going to celebrate this birthday because i lost ma loving grandpa , a few weeks before,
i was happy to get the card  from ma sister from a place of no expectation.
do you know where it was?
(it was under the table cloth where the land phone is kept)


thanks to all who wished me..
and i thank my mother for delivering me to this beautiful world...